97. FEELING GOOD – Nina Simone & GRACIAS A LA VIDA – Joan Baez

My last (but one, I suppose) teaching post, and my longest, was at a Roman Catholic comprehensive school.  Songs had a bit of a role there as much as in any secondary.  An excellent music department ensured that for special assemblies, presentation evenings etc.  the pupils were prepared and familiar with a range of appropriate worship songs. (One of my close colleagues abhorred the move towards ‘evangelical country and western’ in RC worship, and would have been much happier with a few tasteful 17th century Marian anthems!)   But I’m not thinking here about songs as used in our faith-school worship sessions – there were few really – teenagers simply do not sing together in that kind of setting – I’m thinking more about some of the ways we employed songs for other purposes, in other settings involving teaching and reflection.  And these two songs represent two incidents memorable to me for the way songs were used, in both cases, motivationally, you could say.

Every few years or so, all schools have to suffer a grand ‘Inspection’ of course, and all the stops are pulled out (is that a musical metaphor?  Pipe organ etc?) and everybody is on their best behaviour to put on a good show and to impress. Catholic schools have an extra dimension, of course, since some inspectors from church authorities will be looking to see (I presume?) that correct theology and appropriate ethical standards are promoted and maintained.  The ‘year group’ assembly (once a week) would be one way to demonstrate that, you might think.  Our head of the sixth form was a woman for whom I have enormous respect and affection, and I was never more proud of her than on the morning of her ‘showcase’ assembly opportunity during  inspection week.  While she might simply have gone for an easy option of choosing some smart kids to read out carefully articulated prayers, a little well practiced ‘psalm performance’ sung by a couple of more confident A level music students etc, what she actually did, once we were all seated and expectant, was to put on the recording of Nina Simone singing ‘Feeling Good’! It was perhaps unexpected, but the joy it elicited wasn’t merely because of the surprise quality – I’d defy anybody to listen to it even on a grey day, even in an educational establishment, and not to feel their spirits raised! Listen to it again and imagine how bravely almost-subversive it might have sounded in context! – that unaccompanied opening, the introduction of the sensuous beat and bass riffs, the almost-rallying call to freedom (!), the semi-anarchic scat singing! Perfect Catholic assembly.

I learnt something that day, or at least was reminded of it forcibly – that feel good music IS good theology in as far as it asserts the value of existence, the beauty and worth of life, and what on earth could be more important as a basis for any other spiritual, emotional or intellectual development?  But it’s more than just ‘a life-affirming lift’ because of its infectious jazziness, or Ms Simone’s seductive growl…  The whole thing in its simple but superb construction was an entirely appropriate choice to move the spirit forwards! Take, obviously, the refrain stirring us to consider life’s fresh possibilities and potential: ‘it’s a new dawn, it’s a new day, it’s a new-life..!’  In its delicious verses of rhyming  triplets, the song leads us to images of the natural world –birds, sun, breeze….  Fish, river, blossom….  Dragonfly, butterfly, stars, pine scent….  if we’re even half aware of this catalogue to whom the singer calls, with whom she identifies, we get some sense of that intoxication, but the point of the identification is not just that we’re fellow-creatures, but in the shared sense of ‘freedom is mine!’.  And by the time the song ends, we are totally with Nina – ‘And I’m feeling good!’  So thanks, Anne, for that memorable choice: your wisdom, taste and boldness, as ever!  [Quickly and almost incidentally – a Newley and Bricusse song?! Could we ever have guessed? They deserve more respect as songwriting partnership than hitherto accorded maybe!]

The other occasion is perhaps not dissimilar.  On Monday mornings before classes began, those who felt so inclined would gather for 20 minutes or so of prayer and reflection.  For quite a few of the years I was there, I was responsible for overseeing this slot, essentially just drawing up of rotas for whose turn it would be to lead which particular Monday reflection.  I like to think I was moderately creative, imaginative and varied when it was my turn to lead, though I was cautiously aware too  (perhaps as token ecumenical /protestant ?) of the need for my ‘choices’ to make some valid scriptural or spiritual point.  When it was the turn of my (dearly loved) head teacher Pete, he would often be far more adventurously imaginative, often bringing in unusual paintings, snippets from some piece of fiction and nonfiction he happened to be reading, but from it all he would generally weave something provocatively relevant to kickstart our prayers and our day.  On one memorable occasion he said ‘I’m just going to put this song on the CD player.  I’m not sure what it all means, but we probably know what the opening words of each verse mean, and we can get the gist!’ It was Joan Baez’s version of ‘Gracias a La Vida’ from the album of the same name. 

He was being modest about his linguistic ability, I’m sure, but there is a sense in which he was right: you just need to know for starters that each verse begins ‘Thank you to Life!’ (and even better if you know ‘que me ha dado tanto’ means ‘which has given me so much!’) and then you can just let the driving energy and the powerful vivacity of the song carry you along, if not with an equal sense of gratitude, then at least with that clear affirmation of the power of being alive which we got from ‘Feeling Good’!  And once again, you could say perhaps that this was indeed theology enough for a Monday morning, and if we could catch it, a perspective to set us up for the week, for life!

We didn’t analyse it, we didn’t need to.  But if we had…  there is even more in the detail to nourish our minds and hearts, I think.  Six verses, basically life gets thanked for the following: eyes to see it all; the wonderful variety of the earth’s sounds; words, language, communication [one of my favourite bits – ‘el sonido y el abecedario/Con las palabras que pienso y declaro’ – I too am still thankful for the alphabet of language!]; strength to travel, different locations and environments; one’s physical being; (and finally) the whole range of emotion and experience.  This sixth and final verse is the most powerful of all, expressing gratitude for sorrow as well as laughter, aware that these are “ los dos materials que forman mi canto” (the two fabrics that comprise her song) and aware too that one’s own song is connected with the songs of others, the song of life. Although ostensibly she addresses these thoughts to a lover (mi buen amado), there is the sense that she is encompassing all humanity in this common song.

Though popularised by Joan Baez, the song was written by Violetta Parra.  When Sue and I were learning Spanish (sort of) in Seville, our Spanish teacher Joanne told us that if we made it to Chile we must look out for some music by Violetta Parra.  Why we couldn’t have looked out for her music in other Latin countries, I don’t know, but she was sort of right: I found nothing by Parra from the cassette –vendors on Asuncion streets, but plenty from similar vendors on the streets of Santiago.  There is a greater rawness, even melancholy, about her style and work, more than I’d imagined, but the glory of this astounding original composition of hers shines through with a compelling authenticity.  ‘course…  I still go back more regularly to the Baez version, for after all she was the one who has made it kind of ‘accessible’ for all of us gringos.

So thank you God for these songs!  Thank you (for) Life!  It’s a new dawn, a new day, a new life.  And generally, by the way, most of the time, I’m feeling good! 

94. PEACEFUL – Georgie Fame

You have to forgive me if I keep on making the same disclaimer again and again in this series of essays: that I am in no way trying to list ‘100 top tunes’ from the history of song, but rather am sharing my six decade plus autobiography in this rather piecemeal form, where songs have not only intersected with my life in its various stages, but in some ways (some of them at least) have come to ‘represent’ those stages in my memory. I suspect I’m not unique in this: most of us have a sort of soundtrack to our lives!

This choice maybe interweaves a couple of strands. I don’t know, let’s see. The actual memory is a significant occasion I have alluded to in at least one other of these essays, as far as I can remember: summer 1969, when I was given the opportunity of a three week ‘summer school’ (a taster of university life) at Balliol College, Oxford. Significant in lots of ways – eg the Moon landing took place while I was there; I also had my 16th birthday there – my sister Judy came to visit me while I was there and gave me my birthday present –my first guitar (which I had a kind of hinted at/possibly requested… in the hope that I could learn to play stuff like ‘Mother Nature’s Son’ and ‘I will’ from the Beatles’ White album) . It was interesting: and if I were given to regrets, which I’m not, generally, I might wistfully feel that perhaps I could have responded to the strong hints that those who attended the summer school would be favourably looked upon if they were to apply to Oxford as their university of choice. To be honest , reader, even after this experience, it really never seemed a realistic option for me. I didn’t feel clever enough; Swansea Uni was appropriate and fine.’

Back to the summer school and the song. I was a fairly timid sort of 15/16 year old – very young for my years, physically and emotionally, and not really particularly adventurous. I can’t remember feeling especially homesick or disorientated, but I’m guessing that I might have been a bit more hesitant and withdrawn than some of the other boys who had been chosen for this taster experience. But I like to think I was also fairly alert and open to stuff: I certainly soaked up all the new literature choices they threw at us – Hemingway, Kafka, Evelyn Waugh…hey, and they even took us to Stratford on Avon (my first time, folks!) to see ‘The Winter’s Tale’ with the young actress Judi Dench (interesting voice, I thought) playing the role of Perdita. So yes, I was a bit of a sponge. Perhaps we all are at that age.

I had a transistor radio in my room of course; in those days I don’t remember life without a transistor radio, especially since Radio 1 had been invented. It was the background to mornings and nights. On one particular morning, when I rose ready to join the other guys in the refectory (‘refectory!’ –another new word!), I heard this song on the radio. I know I’ve spoken before about the power of particularly good ‘morning songs’ – but this one was indeed for me, on that occasion, one of those that suddenly puts a zing of completely unexpected optimism into your day, like a shaft of sunlight taking you unawares and lifting the spirit beyond imagining: so much so that the memory has stayed with me for, as you can see, a good half century!

I knew of Georgie Fame, of course; he’d had a well deserved top 10 hit with ‘Yeah Yeah’; and there was a warm huskiness to his voice, and a slightly unorthodox jazziness (not that I could have identified ‘jazz’ as such, then, I suppose!) to his style that I found pleasing. But I wouldn’t have said that I was a fan who hung upon his every release! It was just – and isn’t this often the way it happens, people? – the serendipitous convergence of a particular context and a particular sound, and it was beautiful! I probably didn’t even catch all the lyrics properly (just as well maybe!), just got a sense of that ‘morning’ newness. Some of the lyrics sound odd to me now : ‘I’ll wake the sun up/ By giving him a fresh air/ Full of the wind cup’. Hmmm..eh? But of course, good linear lyrical sense doesn’t matter when a song grabs you impressionistically! The second verse – addressing ‘evening’ this time, becomes even more quirkily enigmatic. Still, the chorus held out for us an ideal we could all identify with – peace, man! That longing to find a place, a time, a context free of obligations and demands – ‘it’s oh, so peaceful here/no one bending over my shoulder/ Nobody whispering in my ear’. Perhaps, who knows, this chimed with a new unfamiliar independence I was experiencing on this three week holiday?

It’s a song by one Kenny Rankin – and you can catch his own performance of it on youTube, and it is truly lovely, even the guitar work – but I cling of course to this first encounter with this song and I do think that Georgie Fame brings a different robust vibrancy to it. His distinctive voice, and his jazz style and proficiency have perhaps never received the popular acclaim they deserved. I was pleased when I found out that Blossom Dearie – whom I love, and who wouldn’t – had written a song of appreciation for him – ‘Sweet Georgie Fame’. Oh, how chuffed would you be if Blossom had written you a song?

So there you go. One fifty year old memory. One young man away from home, on the verge of sixteen-ness and guitar-ownership. One ‘morning song’ to be savoured among – who could have seen it then – a Chelsea Morning lifetime of them. A boy who became the man who found the 45rpm single of the same about 30 years later, to put on his living room Rockola jukebox. And a listener who has come to value ‘Peace’/ ‘Shalom’ to an extent even further, fuller than he did with the stirrings generated from this little old song half a century ago…